“I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that’s true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life
You go in shadows
You’ll come apart and you’ll go blind
Some kind of light into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what’s not there.
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it’s strange you never knew…”
After weeks of uncertainty and what’s felt, at times, like the longest weekend of our lives – OPSEU has announced that over 12,000 faculty will be going on strike across Ontario on Monday morning after negotiations broke down over this weekend. OPSEU has released an official statement here.
As a student, I haven’t figured out how I feel yet. We’ve just started to find a bit of a groove, and it’s disheartening to see that come to a halt. As crazy as school makes me feel sometimes I love what I’m doing. This program has sparked something incredible for me and I don’t want to let go of that. Not knowing how long it’ll be this way is the hardest part.
What I do know, is that I stand firmly in support of our faculty, and OPSEU’s position. As a mature student, it is crucial to me that I find stable employment after graduation. I have no desire for precarious contract work, and believe strongly in fair labour policies.
All we can do now is wait and see how this all plays out, and hope all sides remember that we’ve been left frozen in the middle.
When I decided to go back to school I knew it would be a big change.
I’d been a stay at home/work at home mom for the last five years. I’d been to college before as a mature student when I only had one child instead of two. I knew there would be adjustments to routines. I knew about the homework, the struggle for balance, the mom guilt…
The real changes though? I didn’t see those coming.
I described my first week back in the classroom like waking up from a five-year coma.
Staying home was a wonderful experience in many ways, and I’m grateful I had the opportunity while they were young to spend that time with them and support their dad while he had his turn to go back to school and change careers. But little by little I began to lose myself.
For the first time in five years I feel like I’m becoming me again. I’ve found a passion I didn’t know was possible – this program feels like it was made for me in a lot of ways and I truly feel like I’ve finally found my people.
I’m still trying to find my own balance. It’s been challenging juggling family, home, school, and all my other responsibilities as a busy mom and student. But it’s so worth it.